As you all may have realized, I have not been on in the past two months and I have a very good reason for this.
At first, I just wasn't coming on because I was very busy with planning the wedding and getting everything ready for the baby, but on April 29,exactly one month ago, Iost the baby. The doctors believe that it was nothing I did and that the baby was just very unhealthy. I have had a very difficult time with this, as well as my husband. We are still planning on getting married but right now that is the last thing on our minds. We have been going through a rough patch every since I lost the baby and we have taken a break from one another for a month or two. We will get back together within the next sixth months after we have time to adjust to our new normal. Please keep Walt and I in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you.

Mother is being a total cnt today. Whatever. Over it.
 
Anyway. Off to the OB and then dinner and then a romantic bubble bath/evening with Walt dearest.

Walt and I picked our location for the wedding! Right in the heart of England. We will be going to Hawaii for two weeks afterwards for our honeymoon. It's amazing what you can think of while in a bubble bath with your loved one. <3

Casual night out with the fiance doing some wedding/baby shopping. Hopefully getting the last of the baby stuff shortly. It's amazing how much I love this baby even though I haven't met Emberlin yet..

Basically describes my life.

Last night was amazing. Walt and I had a great time at the ball and I got my New Year's kiss. I am so excited for what is in store for two thousand thirteen. I will be getting married to the love of my life and we will be starting our family. Tonight Walt and I will be having a movie night, watching The Vow and drinking hot chocolate after we enjoy a nice, relaxing bubble bath together. Have a great night and a wonderful New Year :-)

This is my last free New Year's and I am going to enjoy it with the fiance and some close friends tonight at this ball the town over is having. I'm super excited and anxious for my knight in shining armor to kiss me at the stroke of midnight. I may post a set later, sooner before the ball. Bye :-)

Going out to eat with the fiance in about an hour. Since I made my last set, I have ordered several maternity tops from Barneys and quite a few gender neutral baby clothes. I couldn't resist. Walt said I am too excited. We're going to some little Italian place here in town. It ought to be good. Bye :-)

Instead of planning the wedding like i said I was going to, I have been browsing Barney's website looking at maternity clothes and baby clothes. I am just so excited for this baby and I am praying every day that this baby will be born healthy. I wonder sometimes if the baby won't be okay since I had cancer, but I have read a lot of studies on that very subject and all of them say the same thing- that it is very unlikely for the baby to be unhealthy just because the mother had cancer. So that is beyond reassuring. I have found so many gorgeous maternity outfits on Barney's website so far and I can't help but add them to my shopping cart :-) hehe